Halloween

Took my baby's trick or treating it sorta sucked because I can't walk so we took the Tahoe and went that way I mean it worked well but I enjoy walking it's just my back has been so terribly painful to where I can not stand on my feet more than three min without spasms erupting causing me to cripple over in pain I know it's my scoliosis and the screws from my operation causing edema and arthritis I'm getting really tired of living like this I can't do anything I can't even enjoy my family and the awesome fall activities and I have yet to have a shopping trip since before March and I love shopping! I'm so angry with my body and it's got me depressed and sad and hopeless but other than that I'm so grateful I could take them and spend that time with them I even took them awhile ago to adventure land USA I think it's called and they had a blast but they only way we were able to do it is if I used a wheelchair so I didn't get to enjoy all the rollercoasters and rides the go carts and laser tag but at least I got to watch my kids enjoy themselves I just wish God would take all this away so I can enjoy my life anywho sorry to be all negative nancy over here it's just I have no one to talk to no friends anyone I know is on fb and lives far away and I don't talk to them often so it's the only way I know to get my thoughts and such out.